so its cd4 i have completely stopped even spotting . it is so weird . i have always had af that last 4-5 full days . but i am lucky i even filled 1 pad this cycle . i wonder if thats normal. that kinda scares me as this cycle is very important to me because of iui. i dont want anything messing it up .maybe i should call my re office and just ask if this sounds like a normal af to them .. i know what they are going to say though ."have you tooken a hpt ?" why do i want to take a hpt af came like clock work cd28 couldn't get anymore text book if i dreamed it up myself...i hate poas .i hate the disappointment every time i look down and see that single pink line . its like why even bother..this ttcing is so dam depressing why do i even put myself though this?i am mommy already to 2 beautiful amazingly awesome kids that i couldn't love anymore if i had given birth to them myself ...but having another child is something i want so badly i cant explain it .i want that experience of feeling my child grow inside of me to give life to my child ,to look at that child and know he or she is a creation of my husband and i ...God I know that will be the best thing i will ever experience in my life ..And, I m not willing to give that dream up because even though i get really discouraged at times i know God hears my prayers ..I just keep reminding myself month after month that God is never to early,never to late , but always on time ...
till next time xoxo, shell
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Shelly, I understand your frustration. You know that I've been there two. Every single tear is worth seeing those two lines. It took my 2 years of trying. Not to mention that we never used protection for about five years. So every month my period was absent, I had that hope. But this was before I knew i had pcos.
keep praying and I will pray for you. theres a reason god put us in each others path. I am blessed to have you in my life.
Luv ya,
Crystal
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