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last night i went to bed i was just lying there thinking ,it doesnt feel like i will ever concieve . so i wasw crying talking to God telling him that i know that he is real ,that he is my father , that 9i have seen him work in my life since i was a small child ..i know he hears my prayers and that i know i need to be patient .. that he has a awesome plan for my life ...i turned all my worry and hurt over to God for the millionth and final time .... trusting him to do what he knows is best for my life...it isnt good for my children and husband to see me go through this whirl wind of emotions ..so i have to let go and let god ...its all out of my hands there is nothing more i can do in the infertility department ...i will go to my re appointments and do my very best to get that bfp if its what God wants then it will come to past ...i was raised Pentecostal i firmly believe in the power of the lord ...i also believe that you have to pray to believe to receive....i don't practice what i preach here lately i have let my emotions get in the way of the Lord...now i am going to let the Lord get in the way of my emotions....


shell